I Said #YestoGod

This has been the hardest study I've ever gone through. All through it more events have occurred and more challenges than the last several months. The biggest one is my current relationship and the challenges we've had. For those of you who know from a previous mention, I am courting a man who is in the military. He is also long distance and I am a very friendly type of person. Loyal. I cherish any friendship I've had. I struggle with separation and loss even if the loss is helpful to me, to the point of feeling overwhelmed. The calling God has on his life is making me have to face so much loss. Including two friendships that were not healthy.In addition, I hate death. Especially with these threats of Syria going on. Last night my mind filled with overwhelming thoughts of being ill equipped, helplessness, weakness, and lack in confidence that I just couldn't do this. I fought him hard as more and more fears crept up till I had to make a choice. Last night was the pivot...

#StickWithIt When God Is Speaking and You Feel Like Quitting

Boy oh boy. I knew this study was going to be a challenge in its content, not necessarily in its requirements and now I have hit that point. Here I am in chapter 5 and I haven't even touched chapter 6 yet though again, like week after week this study is speaking to everything going on in my life. I had no idea which topic to write on this week, but then it kinda just fell in my lap after what I went through this week. Chapter 5 spoke about naysayers. I am all too familiar with them. I recently came across some this week. I am such a person who just wants to be loved and ACCEPTED. I hate REJECTION. Especially from people I call friends and people I love who say they love me. But when faced with those you care about saying the very thing that would crush your spirit with a few negative words, it all of a sudden feels like a mountain got dropped on top of you. I'm determined to #stickwithit though and not let this bring me down. There have been soooo many changes in my life t...